BELIEVE

Again, this is not a review to Justin Bieber's new album. I am not an anti-fan, so no hostility please. This post is about believing. I must admit, being raised in a comfortable home and having not much problems in my entire life, makes me very much oblivious to a lot of things. I believe that people are basically made the same. we're all good people, but it's the places we go to and how we were raised is what makes us grow differently. I believe that even the most harshly convicted person in the law is essentially good. But now just found that not all people believe the things I do. There are people out there who believe that humans are really selfish creatures. Yes, we are selfish, but I believe we can be more than that. We can learn to live for others, as Einstein says, only a life lived for others are worth living. We are made to be help to others, as others are also meant to help us. What's wrong with believing that? Is it too naive? I don't like confrontation. And I'm one of the few people who put up a huge rough front but inside, I hate fighting with others. It just hurts every side. It has no benefit for any side. Though I do believe that emotions need to be put out, I don't believe in putting it out there unnecessarily. Like what I did. I just blew up my back-up plan for college. Now I just have to find another place to go. I don't know if this makes me evil or just plain normal. I want the people who hurt me to regret they ever did hurt me. I want them to suffer, mentally if possible. It should scar them for the rest of their lives. I know forgiveness is the best way to be happy, but now I get the feeling the characters is soap operas feel. Revenge tempts more seductively, and much sweeter than forgiveness. Screw forgiving them. Make them pay, let them suffer! *evil laugh* MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! But as I am phlegmatic, planning a complicated revenge is way too much of a drag for me. Well, according to recent internet search, I practically would need to hold off a year before college. PLEASE HELP ME TO FIND A SCHOLARSHIP TO A UNIVERSITY PREFERABLY FOR A SCIENCE RELATED MAJOR. I am doomed.