almost school

Yaaaaah, bentar lagi masuk sekolah.. BT...
Reaksi gue normal.. Rasanya emang males banget masuk sekolah abis liburan yang rasanya panjang banget.. wekks.. MALES BANGET!!

Liburan ini gue banyak banget bengong and jadi melankolis banget. Raising the big questions like why do I exist? The world might be a better place without me anyways. How do I get this lucky? Why am I here? What am I supposed to do in this world? What's for dinner? How am I soing to work this thing? What would I be when I grow up?

Kayaknya gue terlalu kecapekan deh.. Sekarang aja gue pusing..

Liburan kemaren sepertinya gue baru menghabiskan nasib sial gue selama satu dekade. Sial banger selama tgl 30-31. Hape gue nyemplung, gue dapet mie kocok yang paling pedes, padahal gue benci pedes, mecahin botol-botol minuman, dan sampe jatoh di malem taon baru waktu nonton kembang api. Sial banget.

Slowly, I feel like I am losing myself. Emotions began to fade in my life. I began to lose the passion I have for the things I value in life. It's not like I can't live without it, this world is temporary (in a Christian way) and I shouldn't be too attached to this world (again, in a Christian way). But I'd like to be me, thank you. But it's not like that I have a clue about who I am. All I know is what I've been read, and some was figured out.

So, as I said, it's almost school. Life is dictated and stuff. school sucks!